Not My Story

My Life Group leader asked me if I could share my baptism testimony. It seems such a simple request. But I asked her to give me time to think abou it.

I am a private person not because I am being indifferent. I just mind my own business and I make it a point to use my social media accounts responsibly. A friend thinks I am a ‘deep’ person. If the depth of sorrows before were involved, then yes, I guess I am. I am generally shallow and I laugh at the simpliest silliest things. If my words appear to be quite opinionated and matter-of-fact, it applies to those that I am passionate about. There are plenty of things that I am still clueless about, but the fire of my passion to learn is a definite priority in my life.

If my story appears to be deep, I forgot the main reason why it is even written in the first place. Everything that I am and who I will become is all crafted by God’s wisdom. Penned in His faithful will and creativity. I’ve struggled for quite sometime to write my own story. In vain I have discovered that I cannot do it alone.

After our fellowship night last Friday i realized why I must share my story. It ain’t mine. It is His story, written for me.

Let Go of Your Earthly Desires

My six-word story for this year will be an incredible feat.

It is what I need.

His will for my life feels so magnificent that I can’t wait to live fully and happily in this Earth and wait joyously for the coming of His kingdom.

Make everyday count!

Seventh Heaven

 

I clearly remember their happy faces smiling back at me. Seventh Heaven 🙂 We grew up in a country miles away from theirs, but the Camden’s story is also a part of my family’s journey.

The Lord’s number or a number of completion, seven. In the story of creation and many other wonderful instances, He showed His divine grace through this symbol.

A week of revival is definitely overwhelming. I’m just a small seed in a vast forest of great minds. Blooming where you are planted ain’t easy, but do you suppose a wild flower like me can take this chance? My own seventh heaven is budding. I can feel it!

Kairos

 

Moments and time are valued differently, depending on our perspective and current situation. Kairos is an ancient Greek word meaning the “right or opportune moment” (thanks Wikipedia!). After a few months of uncertainty, I know now that I am claiming my destiny. But am I ready to embrace to this moment? Am I ready for all the responsibility that it entails?

Our fellowship last night focused on keeping the momentum of our spiritual lives. Walking in faith definitely requires vigilance and the consciousness to stay on God’s path. I still have plenty of questions and I don’t have all the answers…

But this is the moment to rebuild and make everything right.

Grace (Mission Story)

 

“Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle all the way…” Samantha happily sang the Christmas carol while her friend Apple bashfully stepped aside. The lady in blue was happy to hear that one of the kids was able to share her talent. As a gift, Samantha got 2 donuts, while Apple only got 1 piece. Both kids ran towards the end of the bus terminal when they got their treat. The lady in red said, “Wow! You are really being welcomed by children for this mission.” The lady in blue nodded in awe, “I hope we don’t run out of donuts before we even meet Tracy and her life group.”

Jeremy saw his friends huddled in the corner, counting donuts. “Can I have some?” One of the kids replied, “I’m afraid we don’t have enough to share. We only have 7.” Samantha had a genius idea. “Why don’t you approach the ladies sitting on the bench and maybe they’d give you a donut too.” Jeremy shrugged, but he slowly started walking towards them.

The lady in red asked his name and urged him to share any talent, but Jeremy lost his nerve. “Can I just have a piece of doughnut?” She smiled, “Well, that’s our only rule. Sing a song, dance or do any trick and then you’ll get a reward.” He remained silent for a while and as he held on to a heap of coins on his right hand, he claimed “I’m already hungry”. The ladies encouraged him to do any presentation, but their efforts were in vain. Jeremy ran to the back alley as he saw the other kids approaching him. “Don’t mind him, he is really shy.” Samantha said. “Too bad he wasn’t able to enjoy the tasty doughnut. By the way, do you even know why we give gifts and celebrate Christmas?” The lady in blue asked. They cheerfully replied, “Yes we do! It’s the birthday of the son of God.” To satisfy her joy, she asked the name of the son of God. “His name is Jesus!” It was indeed a blessed beginning, because after a few more inquiries, the ladies found out that Samantha’s mother used to be a missionary. A simple moment of waiting, turned out to be a graceful time of giving.

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Mori made an unexpected mission before Christmas and together with Cait, an unexpected companion as well, they found themselves in the heart of Pampanga. “I hope some of them are wearing yellow and white. Since I’m already in blue and you are in red, we’d already complete the colors of our national flag!” Mori made a hopeful declaration to Cait with those colors. Lo and behold, Tracy walked in the restaurant wearing an attractive yellow-mustard dress and 3 young girls with her, were wearing white. They started their evening with a delightful story, filled with good food for the body and for the soul.

Now here’s a glimpse of the three ladies, young at heart. Tracy’s ministry for the youth is quite challenging but her bubbly and vibrant energy is a beautiful example of leadership. Mori’s love for children and her gift of music is a remarkable model of dedication. Cait just started her journey of faith, and her curiosity is leading her to spiritual healing. Meanwhile, the young warriors of faith each has an inspiring story to tell. Mark claims to be a mysterious young fellow but his peers already prophesied his destiny as a future pastor. Angelic Angel and Dorky Donna are sisters and their light is beginning to shine among their family and friends. Aside from them, there’s the avid basketball player Brian, Jayson the joker and the jamming Jofer. Nadine’s nice smile and Ailene’s adorable laugh is a must for their life group, while Jelly’s walk with God should not be missed, because it is a joyful reflection of her character. Tomorrow is her third and final attempt for water baptism. After all the hindrances, she’d finally end her longing and begin a new chapter of her renewed life.

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“Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked…” It is only fitting to start a day of baptism with the first words of blessing in the book of Psalms. Armed with her guitar, Mori lead the group in a wonderful hymn of praise. Indeed there is no perfect time to share talents and wisdom, because we are always given a chance to reach out to others and make every moment perfect through the example of Jesus’ mission. Being a witness to the transformation of young lives was also heartwarming for Cait. Her joy from her own baptism only a few weeks ago, was magnified by this fruitful day.

Tracy expected that only three of her wards would be baptized that Wednesday afternoon, but Jayson willingly joined Jelly, Jofer and Donna in their unforgettable day. Prayers were offered and loving testimonies of faith were shared before the four of them were baptized. There is no dove with a shining light and no dramatic sound coming from the clouds, but there were definite voices singing “…I’m coming back to the heart of worship and it’s all about you Jesus”

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The beauty of baptism is written and told by so many people, but the experience is for you to feel and cherish. How can this mere ritual bring astounding change? Water is a normal part of our daily lives. To be immersed in a body of water is definitely not an extraordinary event. But if we examine our hearts and once we truly hear His message for our lives, we allow the symbol of water to soak us with His amazing grace. We begin to take part in the fulfillment of His promises of forgiveness and salvation. To those who are lost, who are waiting for the answers… it may surprise you that He is also waiting for your hearts to be found. He will restore everything that you lack, not only with enough, but with more than you could ever ask for.

Farewell TwentySixteen

​Inspired despite disappointments. My year started out on a positive note, but slowly and surely, it disheartened me. I clearly recall a night of frustration and tears that shook me well. But beyond those fragile moments, there is always a ray of light. Someone. Something. Makes you hold on for dear life.

Rediscovered grief. I thought that the 2nd half of the year would be smoother. It turned out to be the extreme opposite. Grief came in various forms. When you love people, their sorrows and pain, partly becomes yours. Like it or not, it opens up your own wounds too.

Impossible dreams. After celebrating twenty nine years of existence, my life made a colorful scene. Dark heartache because of a denied visa, vibrant leap of fate in a foreign country until it all became a joyful hue of hope. Each event happened so fast, that once I felt my dreams were broken into pieces… an even greater future and adventure unfolded right in front of me. This season of my life, is definitely better than any crazy roller coaster ride.

Surprisingly anew. Perspective, direction and heart. All of me is revived in faith. Blessings in disguise may seem like an overused cliché in my vocabulary, but its priceless value will never change. This year surpassed all the personal struggles that I’ve encountered and I know I will be stronger to face more trials as I press on to fulfill my purpose.

Iris/ Irises may mean a color, an integral part of the eye, a flower and many other things. I’d love to refer to it though, in the essence of a rainbow goddess. The messenger of the gods that embodies new endeavors. As I welcome another new year… As I redefine my humble life… may rainbows fill each day with gentle hope and peace in my heart.

“Grace”

“As I walk with you I’m learning, what Your grace really means…”

Sometimes we get distracted by our daily struggles that we fail to see that even the smallest details in our lives are guided by God’s grace. From a recent sermon that I heard, I am reminded that we need to focus and train our eyes to see the beauty of God’s amazing work in everything that we have.

“You are so patient with me, Lord”

I am still a working progress and each day, I pray that I may never go back to the darkness that hindered me from living in His light. Answers to my prayers, happens in the moments when I least expect it. What a wonderful way to realize that His love never fails me despite all my shortcomings. I am glad I can see this all so clearly now.

 

“Grace”

By: Laura Story

Time

Running out of time. I’ve always felt suffocated because my concept of time before was based on my ridiculous deadlines. The more I did things my way, which I thought was faster and easier, the more I drowned in disappointments. God’s timing is perfect. Currently, the gravity of the meaning of His time in my life is beyond any description that I can think of. But I am certain that I am truly living everyday anew, as He makes a way for me even though it seems there are no other options. Blessed are those who seek and realize the true value and timing of His grace, I respect and admire your examples.

Being late really bothers me. Since I’ve found discipline in being on time, I always did my best to keep that practice. I was chained by excuses and tardiness a few years ago, and the liberating feeling of being early or being on time, is a great reward. The other day, heavy traffic pulled all the strings of my patience and for the first time, I tried to remain calm in the midst of the crazy jam.Whenever my mind haunts me that I’ll be late for work and I am wasting a lot precious time – 3 hours to be exact… I referred to the wonderful verse from the book of Ecclesiastes. I made it right on time for my night shift at the hospital, that’s definitely the best part of my day.

On the other hand, time management is certainly a challenging aspect in my life. As I learn to listen and obey His will, it also takes time to unlearn a lot of routines that consumes me everyday. I need to make time for the new essential habits that would help me rebuild my life and faith. There are moments when I can feel the sting of weakness and hopelessness. Even though it doesn’t make sense, I refocus on the endless possibilities of His grace in my life. To be filled with peace and excitement is so much better than anguish and bitterness. But again, to get back on point, I need to manage my time wisely and effectively. So, let’s see when I’ll make progress! 🙂

“There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under heaven” -Ecc 3:1

First blog post

I’m a trapped rainbow writing away my darkness.

It took me so many ‘laters’ to finally achieve this ‘now’.

I’m a beautiful irony of a brilliant idle.

It is my essential: faith, coffee and tea.